Delirium

Darkness swirling inside me, growing an inch every second of the day, by the bitterness you choke me with. Twisting and turning to become a blackhole of hollowness as I cringe and wince with the burning hate I feel for you.

Sputtering out words with no meaning. Just talking, talking, talking, deliriously. Temperature rising to the maximum, as my heart freezes over, turns an icy blue then finally springs out of order and all this while you watch without a care. Silent, as the sea, pulling me down with your current of insensitivity, leaving me to drown in my own wave of emotions. There I watch you stand alone, the impenetrable wall, to whom a thousand souls have died, crying out to. Unmoved, unconcerned, you simply walk away than to indulge yourself in these foolish games of love. My, foolish games of love.

So let this fact be the very beginning of our end once more. How can you, the stoic, chance crashing into my world, at the expense of your own safe world falling apart.

All dreaming ends

There were days when I dreamt coming home to you would be like falling in a bed of roses, finally having a soft place where I could rest. But I woke up to find the thorns, cut through my heart and the love I had in it for you, was slowly bleeding away. What got left behind was the ugly bruise, I so desperately tried to hide with wishful thinking.

I dreamt you as my soldier of love, my guardian who'd steady me as the world goes crumbling down. But I woke up to find when it all came crashing, the angry shards ripped through who I was until I lost sense of all feeling and fell to the ground hurt.

I laboured away my day and night to build you enchanted castles in the open sky with these grains of sand, so that we may spend our life as one. Believing, the love in my eyes would strengthen you as you'd reach to lift me up from the ground. But your hand never came and I was scorched and blinded by the sun as I looked up to find you.

And so my dreams of finding a hero ended as I looked around to find myself as alone as I always had been.

Home Coming

Ruptured, oozing out the fear that’s been flowing in my veins. I spent my time so mesmerized by the fiery glow of my silhouette that I overlooked the darkness it casted, which blocked out my sun. Frightened by what I might find, I ran so far away from home that my pounding heart drowned the drumming of my feet against the ground. Chartering my course very skillfully, I sought to leave it all behind, until I saw my shadow still with me as one. So I moved. Into my own shining light and watched it melt away. Finally understanding that the strength of a true warrior laid not in the will to fight but in the courage to surrender. For those little moments the world stood still and my heart was overflowing with love and I saw a reflection of who I really was: Immortal.

Smoke mirror

These noises in my head scream, ching klang! Ching klang! of the icy steel emotions, left in the empty spaces between you and me. In the twisted ugliness I found in your oh-so-pretty-face, I struggled to cling to the last inches I thought I knew of you. Hanging for my life, aching to find the key to my infinite wisdom by your guiding hand, knowing I was falling in an abyss, where you would never call out to me. But I still hoped against hope that you would mark it as my absolute dedication to you as the reigning priestess in my temple of love. And so, I lost myself, and you, as I tumbled down in the unknown alone. My mind unraveled countless stories, pointing fingers at you, in a place where time had ceased to exist. Until I began to feel the burden of your sweet seduction weighing me down to my own doom and I released myself from its clutches and set you free. With new born wings, I began to fly. Fly, fly, fly away from where you stand, into a world that’s mine alone.