Lachesism

 Wrap me up in love. 
Tell me that I am beautiful, 
That I am finally good enough. 
This weight,
This intensity of me, 
Too heavy for you to carry
That you tried to fold in, 
Take your time, this time, to bend me. 
Take your time to break me. 
Tell me again how much you love me. 
Say it over and over again,
I need hollow words to put my hopes in. 
Somewhere, I lost my heart along with my innocence,
After that, even my mind has lost its rhythm and has never been quite the same. 
It's funny how one person can leave behind so much empty space, 
And despite so many around, 
No one can ever fill that place. 
I'm still looking for somewhere to breathe, 
No one has ever spoken to my soul the way you did,
They only come rushing in to fix or change me. 
I'm still walking alone in the darkness in every dream.
On days the world feel cold,
I snuggle with the memories of when you sometimes loved me,
I wrap myself with love,
Of what I imagine it to be,
Tell myself that I'm beautiful 
That I am good enough. 
Love parts of me that you couldn't,
That you wouldn't. 
No matter who or what has left,
Of everything dead and gone,
I'm still a home to myself.