Was born pure as the Virgin Mary,
But the years heightened the darkness that I now carry.
Heart blackened more than coal,
Killed the purity of the Holy soul.
Wicked deeds poison in me every part,
Tried to live from the innocent start,
But the body yearns and will is weak,
For the Earthly pleasures, I wish to seek.
I crawl to my knees to your Grace,
Hoping for forgiveness so before You, I can show my wretched face.
Can my tears wipe my sins away?
How can my arrogance lead me on the right way?
At the time when Your beloveds stand tall,
Will I be amongst them or the ones who take the fall?
Will Your Hand of Mercy reach me in time?
Or will I be denied forever for my heinous crimes.
I seek to unravel the Gospel truth,
To uncover the precious diamond underneath the worthless soot.
I thrist for the Heavenly sign,
A life christened to find the salvation thats mine.
I tremble at the thought of You forsaking me,
Fortifying myself somehow against demons I can not see.
Only Your Blessed Name keeps me far from harm,
Your Presence alone makes me feel calm.
The blood in my veins for You I'll spill,
Nothing matters to me expect Your Almighty Will.
The holder of my soul and secrets i keep,
I beg of You not to humiliate me at the time we meet.
