Friday, July 29, 2005

Lucifer and I

Rodents mark their presence, as they skitter away, behind the locked prison doors. Those rust eaten bars and these iron shackles, hold me back from sensing the light outside. Bloodcurdling screams of indiscernible demons, throws my mind in frenzy. I, desperately, try to break free. Tears of helplessness run down my face, as my skin rips open and blood oozes out. I remember the words of my Lord; “seek Me and you shall find”. I got down on my knees, carrying this naked body with me. I bowed my head and closed my eyes, with my heart asking for liberty from this horror. Happiness swirls over, as I feel myself devoid of the bond that held me locked. Footsteps peel my sight once more to the dungeon around. Fear descends heavily where my happiness had been. I, now, watched the hands of Satan put a leash around my neck. Feelings of betrayal sterilize my spirituality. Ashamed, I turn to face the ground below me. Despondency kills the faith left within me. He laughs in delight, as my weakened body struggles to crawl behind him. Every fall hardens my conviction: the Lord has isolated me. Satan pulls me where he wills, with me, following him blindly. I have been enslaved in the realm of the Prince of Darkness and there is no way out. Yet, the shielded light draws my attention. And, in the light when I look up to see, I realize that Lucifer is none other than me…

10 comments:

Running2Ks said...

I like the twist at the end!

KATIE said...

Hey, you dropped a comment on my blog, but I don't get what you're actually trying to say. (: This is a very thrilling work! Yes, the ending is least expected! Wow!

Linda Jones Malonson said...

For one so young, I find wisdom in your thoughts. Indeed, darkness and light is within us all ... and we choose which we desire to experience. In darkness there will always be a light, and without the light darkness would not exist. There are times when I let the demon within me take over, especially when I am feeling lost. But in the end I recognized what is happening, and like you ... I free myself at will. This is indeed profound!

Renee Wagemans said...

Hi,
I read your blog and was reminded of my own struggle long ago

When I gave my life to Christ the war of satan started... Before he need not fight for me because he owned me then. But when I had become a christian he tried to get me back which of course never will happen.
I had to go trough delivery to be free at last.

BlackEmpress said...

woman u better get to prayers fast. Horrible in its intensity but shows the need for salvation & the spirituality of the soul.
A bit wayward but beautiful. WEll written ...

The Voice said...
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The Voice said...

Re-post - sorry, I had to correct a couple of errors.

For those who believe, no explanation is neccessary, for those who do not believe, no explanation will suffice.
Cardinal John Newman


I like the poem. Although, I'm not certain I agree with Blackempress though; the clarity of your self-revelaion indicates you know precisely who you are.

Thanks for writing something that reaches so many hearts and reflects what words often fail to when we try to articulate our innermost feelings.

J

Rambler said...

u've been tagged :)

http://sushi4beginners.blogspot.com/2005/08/tagged.html

sirbarrett said...

Freaky! That is the ultimate ending! To fear no one but ourselves. That is a good lesson too: to learn that the greatest evil we can commit is to not take responsibility for the evil within us, but to blame it on something else that turns out not to be there at all!

Raz Khan said...

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I find your posts extremely intense, scholarly, and mature. Alongside providing me with a break, your name nags me of my high school friend.
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