Love's definitions

I tried counting the miles between us today,
the places we had been,
but I realized the footprints were gone,
And the scenery anew. 
I couldn't recall your face, 
Your fading smile,
or the sound of your voice,
Even love feels different now, 
Like kind eyes, soft smiles and gentle touch,
Snuggles on a wintry night. 
Endless laughter. Affirmations, I'm here.
That I'm no longer a visitor but actually belong.
Tears. Only this time of happiness. 
Coming up for air after holding my breath till I was blue,
And being able to breathe. Really breathe.
Like I can feel the sun on my skin,
My cold and empty heart finally opening again 
from the warmth.
Even you feel different now. 
Like the weariness after a very hard and long journey, 
The bruises left behind from holding your fist too long,
Like the departure once the plane lifts into the air, 
Like it's finally gone, 
And that we are finally over.